Now I know the difference.

Seeing you everyday and seeing him every week. Things are just... Different. I hate it that you dont care, I hate it that you are so nice to everyone, I hate myself for not being able to pull back, I hate the fact that Im sucha a control bitch, I hate all of this.

Sometimes what you say and do gives me courage, sometimes, it just doesn't. It demoralises me.

I question myself how I can even be so thick skin to even say these things. I'm just fat.. I know how to world works. I need to slim down, like really slim down to a perfect weight, pls let me have the courage to pull through and preservere

我需要多点独立因为我想摆脱对你的依赖性。